changes

my first instinct here is to shut down this whole blog and start over again fresh. In my moments of anger I want to remove every picture of him and all traces that he ever existed in my life. In the end it comes down to the fact that no matter how hurt I may be he will always be my childrens father and no matter what personal feelings I have towards him I could never say that he is a bad father. He loves his children and they love him and they enjoy looking at this blog and seeing pictures of them.

So, I have decided not to alter any of the past slide shows and blog posts. I am moving on and obviously our family is completely different now but it is impossible to erase him from our past. Even the title of our blog: "the romero family, moments in the life of one crazy family" is still relevant. We are a different kind of family now but being single doesn't make my little group of three here any less of a family.

starting over

It has been such a long time sice I've sat down to work on the blog. These past 9 months have been a whirlwind and I can't imagine trying to sort it all out in my head enough to put it into words. Those of you who are close to me know whats been going on and that I am working hard at moving on and starting over. I will admit that there are times when I feel like my head is spinning with how quickly and unexpectidly life can change.

If all of this has taught me anything it is that I am stronger then I thought. I am blessed to be called mommy by the two most wonderful children in the world. Their strength and resilience through this amazes me every day. How could I ever completely regret the past when it is those choices that brought these crazy little guys into my life. They are my joy and the reason for everything that I do.

It will be a long path and there are still lots of changes to come I am sure but I know that whatever happens the three of us will make it together and everything will turn out just fine.

hahahahaha

Need I say more? really?

Christmas 2008